I am Healed

But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon Him: and by His stripes [I] am healed...

                                                                      Isaiah 53:5

Firstly, I'd like to begin by talking about God's immeasurable grace, His inexhaustible mercy, His unfailing love, His inexpressible peace, His overwhelming amount of power! God is truly mighty, and worthy to be praised in spirit and in truth, day and night, through and through, until eternity. My words can't merely express God's love, and I surely can't thank Him enough even with a thousand tongues. But I'll try.. lol

Today, I would like to share my testimony with you all. It's a little personal, but I believe in my heart that God will relieve you and release you of whatever is holding you captive, and simply bring you hope after you finish reading this.

About four months ago, me and my husband got married...Yeah I know some of you are like wah? I'll give you more details about it later, and I have a lot of catching up to do! So bare with me:) lol The night that we got married, I started my monthly and up until March 18, 2014  it stopped. In December I visited the doctor and was told that I had lumps in my right breast and basically said that I needed to visit a professional to be sure that everything is okay. I told my husband about it, and him with such great faith said "Taylor, you're going to be fine, don't worry about it God will take care of you". For some time, that gave me great comfort, until I kept waking up in the middle of the night with aching pains in my breasts. Over that amount of time, the lumps were able to be felt without trying to find them. And, again, I didn't worry about it, and on top of that, the never ending menstrual cycle was a pain and I kept complaining about it to my husband, friends, and even the doctors. I thought it was my body reacting from a recent birth control change, so I called my doctor and they prescribed me with some medicine that was supposed to stop the bleeding. WELL after taking so many pills, it still didn't stop anything.

I literally became burdened by everything that was happening on the inside, not really knowing what was going on with my body. I prayed and asked God to take the pain away and the never ending menstrual. Each time I came to Him, He didn't answer or even told me why it was happening or what was going on. But it was up until a couple of days ago when He revealed all the answers to me with the solution as I was in prayer with my husband.

I pressed in His presence seeking Him consistently until I heard His voice say "lay your hands over your right breast", and without hesitation, I did it. God told me that the enemy was attacking me with stage 4 breast cancer over these past months, but right now I am going to heal you". He said "Since the night you got married I have been healing you and cleansing your body through your blood flow". God said "Declare healing over your body, and speak life over yourself", He said "This was for my glory, you are healed, you are set free, now go out and finish the good work that I have started in you". 

Must I also add that two years prior to this situation, I kept hearing a little voice saying "you're going to have breast cancer",...totally ignoring the signs, not thinking or believing that it was me...

Now after He finally told me what has been going on, explained why I had pain in my breast, why I was on my menstrual for 4 months straight, why the lumps, He explained to me everything that I was not aware of and behind it all He was working on my behalf healing me through the process!

So I was like....."just like that Daddy?...the cancer is gone...I'm healed?..."

I was completely surprised and would never think that something like that would happen to me. I thought to myself,..."I'm too young for breast cancer...how could...what?" And then God heals me from it...WOW!

When I tell you that God is good...there is no other words to describe the emotion and the passion that drove me to step into another dimension of worship, to praise Him for gracing me with life abundantly, gracing me with a chance to finish out His plans for me! Stage 4 breast cancer is a serious disease that many women are yet still battling with,..and just like that God has me to walk away from it? I am still astounded by the timing, because it could have been a 4 year long process healing while battling with Breast cancer, but instead He blessed me to be healed in 4 months..even with my complaining??? 

How many of you have a "should have been" or "could have been" moment?

Because just like, it should have been Barabbas, it should have been me, it could have been me, I could have died, I shouldn't have lived, I should be on chemotherapy right now, I could have had surgery, I should have, because of the filth, because of my fault, because of my dirtiness, and yet still Jesus died, He decided to let me go, He paid the price, by His stripes I am healed, God let me live, He healed me instantly without a doctor, without a knife, without having to fight, no stress, He didn't put anymore on me that I could bare, God showed me His glory, He embraced me with His glory, He showed me He cared, He loves me, He chose me, I am healed, free from any disease!

I began to think wow, why would God do that for me, why would He heal me from the potential of being stricken down by stage 4 cancer, why would He do that for me? Why did He stop it before it could have gotten worse? I have nothing, I sin!! I am yet still in shock! 

Sometimes we feel like we aren't worthy of instant healing, a calling, a gift, a blessing or even a relationship with Him,..but God said you ARE worthy, I literally felt like the woman with the issue of blood...

Luke 8:43:48

 And a woman having an issue of blood twelve years, which had spent all her living upon physicians, neither could be healed of any, Came behind him, and touched the border of his garment: and immediately her issue of blood stanched. And Jesus said, Who touched me? When all denied, Peter and they that were with him said, Master, the multitude throng thee and press thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me? And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me: for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me. And when the woman saw that she was not hid, she came trembling, and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched him, and how she was healed immediately.

And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace.

We are worthy of His goodness, not because we deserve it or because we are good, but because HE is good, because HE is loving, because HE is kind. 

I know that many may not be able to comprehend or even grasp the intensity of this situation. The enemy had a plan to destroy me, but just like Job, God said you can try and take everything else and kill everything around him,but the enemy couldn't lay a finger on Job, he couldn't kill him. One thing that the enemy must have forgotten is that, God protects His children, in other words, God doesn't play when it comes to His kids! The enemy can't touch what he doesn't own, he may own the world, but I am not of this world, I am God's, I am His alone!

No matter what you're going through, no matter how confusing it may seem, remember that God is in control, trust Him, trust that He is still working on your behalf, healing you, blessing you, working out a miracle for you and strengthening you! His eyes never left you, even if He doesn't answer you right away, trust that His divine will for you life will work out for you good. Whatever you do, don't complain about your circumstance, don't complain about your situation, don't complain about anything that is causing you pain, instead give thanks to God for the good that is about to take place, give thanks to God for the miracle that He is about to release to you, everything that we go through is ultimately for His glory, we were born with purpose, so let your situation remain just that, purpose,! Even though we may not understand the reasoning behind the pain, because in that God has a plan to heal you, to rescue you, to love you, to bless you and to keep you! God is an on-time God, He may not come when you want Him to, but He surely comes right when you need Him to, He is still there in the mist watching over you, so don't give up on Him in this season, because just like Jesus died on the cross and never looked back or hesitated to die for our sins, God will NEVER give up on you!

Even if it is cancer, don't give up, stay on your knees, lay hands on yourself and declare healing, believe that you can receive your healing today without going to the doctor! God is the doctor, He is the solution! The impossible is God's chance to work a miracle out on your behalf. Be patient, this walk isn't going to be easy, but you are a winner in the end, Jesus already defeated the enemy, so keep your peace and speak life! This situation really changed my mindset, and my outlook on who God is. He is too good for me to even look back! If you don't know Him, just taste and see that the Lord is good, He loves you too, He wants to heal you too, stop running, just believe and everything that has been burdening you will be taken away "just like that" because of who He is!

P.S.
Ladies, be sure to get a mammogram regularly so that you aware of what is going on in your body...don't wait until the last minute to make those decisions. It is important to God that you maintain a healthy lifestyle physically and spiritually, so make a habit of staying on top of these things.

Take care of yourself